Ive said it once…
Actually Ive said it many times.
There are certain people who consider themselves my “friends”. When in reality, they know close to nothing about me. Its like the first few months youre friends with someone, you’re kind of fake. Not fake in a bad way. Fake as in, “wow I really want to be friends with this person, so I’ll do what it takes”, kind of thing. But once that wears off, the person learns who you REALLY are. They either like you, or they dont. There is no inbetween. There can be, but its very rare. I have about three friends who unconditionally love me. There are a few more who say they do. And pretend to bend over backwards for me. But they really don’t. I know that becauase they give up on me.
I like to push people away. Its not something I’m proud of. I’ve just always done it. It does prove who your true friends are though. In my whole life, I’ve had two people ever give up on me. One physically said they give up, and the other just left. The things I do to push people away aren’t unprovoked. I always have reasons for what I do. And normally I tell you that. If I tell you my feelings or what I do something, believe me. Don’t agree, go with it for a couple days, then pretend I never said anything.
There couldn’t be anything worse than trying to talk something out with someone, and having them not listen to what you have to say. Or have them reply with “im sorry you feel like…” or “I have feelings too”
Im getting annoyed just writing this because it is so frustrating when someone calls you a friend but they don’t understand you.
When I tell someone I need space. It doesn’t mean for a couple of hours. Acouple of hours doesn’t give me ANY time. Usuaully space is a few days or maybe even a a couple of weeks. And when I say I need space, that means NO contact. AT ALL.
You know what else is annoying? When you don’t respond to a text for a few hours and the person is like “Ok, your feelings are clear Missy” or they freak out because you aren’t responding. I’m sorry I can’t text you back or don’t WANT to text you back every 2 minutes.
This is who I AM. If you can’t accept that. Then please, go ahead and give up. I don’t need you if you’re going to suffocate me and make me feel like complete shit over something stupid.
p.s. Maybe I would make an effort to hang out with you if you didn’t ask me EVERY day. If you let ME come to YOU, something might work. But when you constantly bug me, all it does is irritate me
